|The Princess wanted to sleep - bug off|
|The last picture I took of her|
I have come to expect that this may be as good as it gets as far as my personal recovery and I have decided that is ok. Besides the pain of Gemi's death, the accident is a reminder that life is not fair and bad things can happen to everyone. Nightmares can come true. It is a crappy lesson to learn, but one most humans have to. With the pain of Gemi's death becomes this reminder that I am not immune from bad things.
Side note: It is ironic that she came into my life at the end of the previous worst time of my life (the end of my Master's and dealing with an abusive advisor) and her leaving became the new worst time in my life. I am sure there is some karmic message in that.
So today I will try and remember all the good and funny bits of Gemi. I will do my best to keep the extra pain at bay and keep it all in perspective. Today I will remember my crazy, dirty, messy girl, so full of love when it was convenient for her.
To my girl: Gemi, know that you were loved whole heartedly and are greatly missed!